I had a vision this morning. Imagine a boundless ocean – cerulean…calm. I watched a woman slowly immerse. Her loose fitted white gown translucently reflecting the sea’s blue-green and mimicking her movements as she fought to swim to the top. I looked up, I could see her point-of-view. Suddenly, I was she. The lights shining through the water’s surface diminished as the distance enlarged between us. Tired of fighting, I paused. It was then I felt something heavy attached to my right ankle – it was weighing me down. I looked to see what it was. There were so many hands gripping me… so many people. (07.11.11 journal entry)
The meaning of the vision was clear and simple to understand. Watching the woman from a distance and then suddenly seeing it from a point-of-view perspective let me know that other women would be able to relate to what I saw. Many of us have an inclination to nurture and get involved beyond what is healthy for us personally. The hands gripping my ankles in the vision represent the people, projects and distractions in my life, and the fading lights were my own hopes and dreams slowly slipping away.
I prayed urgently because the idea of not living my purpose – the things God has created me to do is my one true fear. If God took the time to show me such a powerful vision, there must be something I can do. There must be a solution. I needed an answer. I waited, the answer came – it’s as simple as saying “no.”
Not only is it okay to say “no,” but sometimes it is necessary in order to empower others who are sinking with us to release us, and swim for themselves.
I realize this particular blog entry may not be for everyone, because I know women who do not have a problem saying no, and I applaud you. But if you are one of those women, and you know of someone this blog entry would encourage, please share it with them.
peace, love and balance…