Fearfully and wonderfully ~ that’s how you were created. The essence of you. Everything about you rested in the mind of God before the foundations of the earth until the day you were born. He thought about you too long to make a mistake. From the core of your soul to the depth of your heart, you are all the way through…you. (journal entry 12.03.03)
Sometimes I wonder if the people that know me “really know” who I am. So I did a little experiment and asked several of them a question, “Do you know what things matter most to me?” When I asked the question, I noticed the look on their faces, kind of a “caught off guard” or “is this a trick question?” expression, but they were all kind enough to provide an answer. Each answered correctly, generally speaking, but many of them couldn’t pinpoint a deeper answer.
Hmmm… I asked myself, is this because they can’t see me? Is it because I have not been clear? Maybe a little of both? Definitely both. I had been so busy doing things that I hadn’t taken the time to express myself. How could they have seen me? How could they possibly have known?
The beautiful thing is that the individuals I asked wanted to know the “deeper answer” to the question. I took the opportunity to share, and just that quickly, the dynamics of our interactions changed in a satisfying way. Finally they see me.
What did I learn? I need to share my thoughts and passions more often. I need to establish healthy boundaries so that others can clearly see where I stand. I need to simplify my life, slow down, breathe and come back to center – everyday. The essence of who I am had a difficult time shining through all of the busyness in my life. It’s time for a shift and I must be the catalyst for change in me.